This is me last night at Starbucks studying away.
And this is not what I wanted to be doing at the time.
Trust me, I would much rather be at yoga, taking a walk on the canal, going for a run, or doing the second day of Tina’s Bootcamp.
But when I signed up for medical school 2 years ago I made a commitment to put it first in my life for 4 years. Unfortunately at times, studying comes before working out, before cooking a nice meal, and before spending time with friends. It’s a constant balance to make sure I have enough healthy meals on hand for nights like last night- when I realized that I needed to spend a few hours studying. It’s not a fun decision to make because honestly, studying sucks about 90% of the time.
Quick dinner: Greek yogurt with a nectarine and a pumpkin muffin
I try so hard to workout at least 5 times a week, but if you look at my workout log- I only made it to the gym twice last week?!?! How does this happen? It is completely frustrating to me as well because as soon as I feel good about a fitness routine, or as soon as I’m having fun with friends, really whatever, reality hits and I know it’s time to get back to the books.
Medical school is all about feeling guilty.
You feel guilty for studying and missing someone’s wedding. Guilty for studying over Thanksgiving. Guilty any time you aren’t studying. Basically, all day long you feel bad about studying or not studying- it goes both ways.
I ALWAYS feel guilty about deciding between studying and working out. Because lots of times, it comes down to picking one or the other. Last night I picked studying.
At least I had gotten in 25 min on the treadmill yesterday morning. But nevertheless, I felt guilty about missing my intended leg workout. This morning I’m up early to get in a bit of studying so that hopefully tonight I can workout and not feel terrible about it.
Because what fun is working out when you have anxiety the entire time about not studying?
I probably sound crazy- but I hope someone out there understands!!
Do you have to chose between working out and doing something else you’ve committed yourself to?
Do you have exercise guilt?
When do you feel guilty about missing a workout?